two eggs dont last like the feeling of what he needs...

fuck its been a while...
ive realised so much has changed since i last wrote on here!
but i like change :)

fuck colours nowadays... who gives a shit.

missing you... weirdly.... who would have thought it! just we have become closer over the years and now its weird to know i dont have you around as much :(

bad bad influences ahahaa
makes life well worth it, they were good :)

"I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak, but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt; now the rain is just
Washing you out of my hairand out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
So many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head."


see you soon babe ;)
oh change what a wonderful thing
its gonna get yaaaaa.
iloveyou. Miss Unknown

you...

'she loves you more than you will ever know'

'i'm lucky just to linger in your light'







panda dogs <3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

I watched his wildest dreams come true...

little chats and shared giggles...
comfort.
happiness, its nice to be happy. with you.
i hope this lasts... i really do
you're alwaysss on my mind... i cant help it...

our chats, all of them, just the...
openess... of both of us
everything is shared.
this is going well...

you mean so muchh <3



'and your so
damn lonely
when you're
on my mind'
'i'll sing 'i love
you something the way you
you wont forget' love me.'


'I waited eight long months
She finally set him free
I told him I can't lie he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we had caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile.'

i love that song :)
XxX you xXx
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

i might have to bend it bacl or break it, break it off....

"i dont want your hair touching mine"
just to warn you, you messed with the wrong person!
shes not upset.... she cried coz she had two options...
1. cry angrily
or
2. punch your mother fucking lights out!
and lets face it as she said.. "wouldnt want her dirty blood on my hands..."

yeah.... coz human utopia is going to change things, its going to change people. not. people only change if they can see what needs to be changed and want to change which these people dont, they dont care it will all be forgotten about in a while.. just like before.... and the people that dont need to change, will think that something is wrong with them.....

its the same in every school.. so why is ours going to be any different?





iloveyou. Miss Unknown

My Chemical Romance- Cemetry Drive

This night
Walk the dead
In a solitary style
And crash the cemetery gates
In the dress your husband hates

Way down
Mark the grave
Where the searchlights find us
Drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

I miss you
I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Back home
Off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun
Staring down a loaded gun
So I won't stop dying
Won't stop lying
If you want, I'll keep on crying
Did you get what you deserve?
Is this what you always want me for?

I miss you
I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Way down

I miss you
I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Way down



iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

we are young and we dont care...

i loved today so much.....
you mean so much to mee and im gonna miss you so much tommorrow!
i dont really know what to say about you on here anyway.... because you have heard it alll, and you know everything <3
thank you for pulling a sickieeee <333
tbh i think it turned out to be well worth it :)
i have thebiggest smile everrr and i laugh so much when i am around you... its safe to say im comfortable with you <3





growls and giggles <3



xxx you xxx
iloveyourmum ;) xxxxxx <333333
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Not hanging on to worn out memories...

i love it all, everything...
it just feels so right, i am slowly falling in love with you!
i cant wait till to tommorrow <3
theres so many things i love about you, i would say but i will be accused of being worse than you... by you!! lol so we will save it for later :D

thank you waffle cat for making me fall in love with Marilyn Manson music! <3>

Here and now is where I want to be
Not hangin' on some worn out memory
And I know the best thing for my low
Sometimes you just gotta, you gotta let it go











blogsssss <3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

and this lad at the side drinking a smirnoff ice came and paid for her tropical reef...

sometimes i go out in the rain and cry for absolutely no reason at all...why?
i think there are questions that cant really be answered.


you mean so much and i think about you all the time.... <3
i cant wait till saturday!





iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

echo beach, far away in time...

i love this boy!

talking to you from 23:30 till 05:00. and i woke up at half past six, i am absolutely shattered but it was well worth it....
i actually think we could chat forever!
by the way its going its going to be another late one tonight :)

even though its kinda shit or pointless you still give me your opinion but its actually become habit... and you suprise me every time you remember a silly little thing that i dont expect you to remember and still my smile remains.....


you never fail to amuse me, i just feel so god damn lucky <3





ineverstopthinkingaboutyou
remembershirtandwall <3

iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Here and now is where i want to be...

the things you do just to speak to me!
i will get you used to being up late, coz i love talking to you.... i could talk to you forever, just so we can make up our own little private jokes, and find out new things <3
your always on my mind, i feel amazing when i am with you...

at first you respected it, you didnt laugh, and now im over it, that easy.... coz you make me feel so confident and like i can do anthing ^.^



great day todayyyy i love you and you!!!! <3
"stop having so many sex changes" ;)


iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Tell me where's your hiding place...?

you make me so happyyyy <3
i hope you notice, i hope you feel the way i do....
i only have to be talking to you, or about you and i will have a big smile on my face!
iloveyou.


if you want to talk i am here, im worried, you seem really down... just come to me if you need to talk.

Uninviting,
But not half as impossible as everyone assumes you are
Crying lightning.
Your past-times, consist of the strange,
And twisted and deranged,
And I hate this little game you have called,
Crying lightning.

oh he might wear classic reeboks, or knackered converse, or tracky bottoms tucked in socks
Don't get me wrong though there's boys in bands and kids who like to scrap with pool cues in their hands and just 'cause he's had a coupla cans he thinks it's alright to act like a dickhead
And over theres friends of mine... what can i say i've known them for a long long time...!




Komm und hilf mir fliegen. ~~<3
Even the stars refuse to shine.... <3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

I finally find...You and I collide.....

...you will remember this song.... <3
it was the best answer i ever gave to a question..
it might work... it might not... but we're giving it a go anyway...

really not enjoying being at home at the moment... just simply shit, its bringing me down.
i dont need all their individual crap, towards me.
yeah ok i willl agree that at hime im a moody cow... but its coz i just get constant shit.

you're one of the main things making me happy, i could be in the shittest mood ever and just talking to you will make everything better...
thank you...
"i love you not, for what you are, but the way i am when i am with you..."

' Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and just listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world , who holds your hand in front of his freinds, who thinks your just as pretty without make up on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much you mean to him and how lucky he is to have you... the one who turns to his freinds and says... "thats her..."...'

If only this kind of boy exsisted for everyone. Sounds a lot like a fairytale...



Favourite Song: The Temper Trap- Science Of Fear <33333
iloveyou...
illoveyou. Miss Unknown

Say Goodbye To All The Hearts You Break... And All The Cyanide You Drank...

i want saturday night and sundays happiness back...
i'm not sure where it went, but it's not here at the moment.
Bits of trust are now missing, from people.

Now i feel like i dont know you...

. not give up
And not be a quitter.
No matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face
And collapse .

. Well this is not your fault
But if I'm without you
Then I will feel so small
And if you have to go
Always know that you shine brighter
Than anyone does .

. So sorry you're not here
I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear
Now take a trip with me
But don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem
Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today
I've known it from the start
These good ideas will tear you're brain apart
Scared but you can follow me
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die .


. Eminem- Till I Collapse
. Paramore- Brighter
. Avenged Sevenfold- Bat Country

iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

I don't want to think anymore.... now i feel like i dont know you....

no it was not directed to you, just for....
the record...
lets face it you didnt ask to be put in your hole, just one day you walked down the dangerous path, and fell in to your trap...

So bad start to the day.... please, promise me you wont do it again.
but iloveyou...
you make me feel like the happiest girl in the world.
the happiness you give me every day is the happiness that he wanted to give and failed.... <3
sometimes it all feels like a dream.... or a fairytale.



me and Ginge are looking at love quotes... it feels wrong, but devilishly good that you apply to quite a few <3

You wrap you thoughts in works of art, and their hanging on the walls of my heart...

just coz your trying to think more positively and feel happier...
doesnt mean that now you can sit there and judge your friends nd how they feel at the moment.
because just remember there was a time when you used to sit in the hole that you dug
yourself in to and refused to see the light that tried to brake through....

Happy...Happy....Happy... i'm getting there....

Sundays are such nothing days, they are my least favourite day of the week...
but i have had a great weekend and am in a semi-good mood!
Actually cannot wait to see Paloma Faith on the 31st of March! iloveyouellen <3


" Stargazer, heartbreaker.
Wish you were here.
How will I shine anymore without your atmosphere?
My dear stargazer, don't disappear.
How will shine anymore when you're not here?

You're my every day and the moment I wake up lonely;
You're the only one who can restart for me...
Twinkle twinkle, little dream "

" I am a broken doll and you are the puppeteer. Take control for me and wipe away my fears I don't claim to be perfect I know I am damaged good But I wanna be led out of darkness just like every lady would Lick my wounds and watch them seal with your healing heart Embrace my sadness, Look after me Coz there is no one else I 'd ask "

mwahahahaahahaha....

^^ you. ^^

it may not seem like very much but im yours.
Paloma Faith- Stargazer ^^
Paloma Faith- Broken Doll ^^
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

I'm a whole other dimension, dancing doubles on the floor.....

i love this, i love it all...
i love it because i love all the little quirky or silly things about you that you
dont immediately recognise or realise.

i love the way you cheeer me up no matter what.
how you always spell things wrong,
how you think im the most amazing person ever,
and find good things in the crazy things i say,
and how you always listen to music... music i like tooo.

i don't what is going to happen.... but i hope its something good....

xxxxx



you:
im so glad you have them now, you know im always here for you no matter what as
i have said a million times now.
thank you for making me feel better tooo, you think you words don't mean anything but they really do... they, mean so much to me <3

you:
i know you dont really come to me first anymore.... not sure if you ever really did.... but anyway... i just hope you know, im always here to listen no matter what.

This applies to: you, you and you:
im here for you, my arms and ears are always open for you anytime honestlyyyy, i may not be the best at solving problems, but i can assure you im a good listener, so any time my babiessss :)



ahaaaaa you.







iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

words cut like a knife through vaseline, you can't really mean what you mean...

ahaaa.
so im kinda happy at the moment.... birthday on sunday <3>
i know exactly what is making me happy,and its bad. if only circumstances where different
i gonna see you both at the same time...
im so confused.... why....is it like.... this.
this isnt getting any easier/ better.


ahaaaa. i love you! lol this is just to make you happy ;)
your the bestestestyness friend anyone could ask for, and i love you :)
LOL <3 color="#33cc00">told you i would make you happy some how xxxxxxx


monkeys throw shit, sometimes lifes a monkey.....







iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Wasting me away. With no apologies....

she wants to choke on her life again, breathing it in like a deadly poison. she cries coz shes lost

but she doesnt even know what she wants . her eyes go cold and she begs the world to just let her go... she hides all alone inside the pain that she wont let go, watching her life pass her by, watching it all throuh her watery eyes.
but ill be chasing dragonflies from her darkest skies... until the day she dies.....

im sorry, i shouldnt have said anything.
but we will just forget everything that was said. i wasnt going to tell you.
just forget it all. you mean so much. its not going to become awkward. i promise.
im sorry.









iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

wake up in the morning feeling like winehouse...

hmmmm. im all confused and stuffs.......
you confuse me.
.....
..........

quite simply, i think things are different for you...

i dont think its gonna be quite as simple as i thought.. or as it first seemed...

theres jealously, and little trust..... and a sense of being used?...

yeah. used?

rawrrr. i just dont knowww

or its just simply my immaturity...?




Allow it.

Rihanna- Hard
iloveyou. Miss Unknown. (L)

they can say whateva, im'a do whateva, no pain lasts foreva. yup ya know this...

Can't Do This.
Can't Do This Anymore.
Can't Do This.
These People Make Me Feel Sick.
I Hate You All.
Go Sort Out Ypur Own Lives, Before Judging Mine.

And People Wonder Why I'm Depressed...







iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Our lips, Can touch

I miss you, i saved them. i saved them all...
they meant so much.... you mean so much <3
i love you



"Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...."


thats how i feel.

in science, with the Amazing Robyn <3 not doing much work, but oh well, good times jebe and the Jesus chats :) ilove Robyn x






hellogoodbye- Here in your arms
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

All i can ever be to you, is the darkeness that we knew and this regret i've got accustomed too.

wow.... its been so long, i dont even know where to begin.....
I still feel shit like before. possibly worse coz i have even more family shit thrown in. its not they're business right now, what they dont know wont hurt them. the more she does this, the more im gonna do that, but whatever, i just cant be dealing with her shit right now :/

I have officiall given up with you, i want nothing to do with you, you come out with all this shit that you have changed, bit i can see through the lies now, you're still he shit head you always have been. you cant hurt me anymore. yeah. people know now. Cockland. beaters arent respected. it quite frankly was love. pfft. no. infactuation.

im glad we're freinds again and that everything has kinda been forgotten about, coz i still consider you to be a really close friend and we can talk about anything you are considered a really close friend too, and its nice that we help with eachothers issues, you know i will always be here for you and i wont ever judge <3
you now... and i really like you asi have told you and i love getting to know you better.... i miss you everyday.... and when i saw you last, i was sooo happy (L) you.... how do i know that what you say isnt just empty words? how can i tell that you 'love me'? and what would happen to me if i found out that what i suspect from you is true? and would it be too late? i dont know.... but im willing to take the risk..... i love you, i love you, i love you.... <3
xxxxxxxxxxxx


ahaaa <333
Amy Winehouse- My Tears Dry On Their Own <3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Sometimes i feel like saying lord i just don't care, but you've got the love i need to see me through...

i never thought i would loose a freind at the end of it all.... i never even imagined it would this bad.... i didn't realise i would turn in to this disgusting human being who you can't stand near, look at or talk to... i guess i was stupid in thinking that it wouldn't be this way.

im gonna miss you over the half term... i know after everythying that has been confessed but you are such a close friend right now and its the best feeling to know that i have you to talk to whenever i need it and you have really helped me over the last few weeks, is it more than friendship for me though?
<3


spending weekend with sian and char <3
so it should all be good, it will keep my mind from wandering for the time being.



told you, you hadnt changed. it had to be done... you had it coming to you for a while.





gosh.
<3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

for all the ghosts that are ever gonna scar me...

just simply... i need to stop taking things out on myself.
but its all my fault, what am i supposed to do... i hurt.















iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

We've got obsessions......

well thank you for acting mature about it. not.
ok that was bitchy, i understand it must have really hurt, but you're not the only one its ever happened to. i know how your feeling... im sorry i couldnt keep you happy, but it got to the point, where i got to the only situation in life where you HAVE to put yourself first. it was your happiness over mine. you may have been happy but i wasnt.... and it got to the point where i began to think i dont think you're the one that can make me happy.
all im saying is just dont take it out on your freinds. they're fucking caring. so dont throw it back in their faces. or one day thay just wont care anymore. just my lil warning there.

it was one of the hardest things id ever had to do... trying to put something nicely that no matter how i said was going to have the same effect. but if you even bother/ care/ are mature enough to read this then just think about this... would you have rathered id led you on? thinking about something more which was never going to happen? you said you wanted me to just be happy.... well this is what i need.... and im sorry... really. i am. but technically im apologising for trying to make myself happy.

i can understand if you dont want to be friends.
i just hope you find happiness again.
it was nice being part of that group just for that short while.
love you all <3



song of the day: Marina and the diamonds- obsessions <3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

your dirty little secrets.....

Can't say much on here, but oh.my.god.
brilliant night last night... completely out of my face, which was well needed may i add.
it helped me forget EVERYTHING.

it was nice meeting you, shame we weren't introduced before last night... good times :] <3



YOU GEEK....

what drunken madness we lived in just for those quick hours <3








YOU GEEK.
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

I'm all out of faith, this is how i feel, im wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn...

WELL. right i guess i have explaining to do... i cant talk to you on msn coz you're offline and im about to go out. so i will have to say on here (which i hate btw)...

you are making things better for me, just knowing i can talk to you whenever and that you care is enough to make me feel better... i didnt mean say i dont want to talk to you, or whatever its just i just need time thats all and not for you too get too obsessed, i dont want to hurt you like she did... coz i dont care whether you're used to hurt.. i dont want to be another person to hurt you.... i do need you, and i need you here, if you werent i would have told you by now.
i just need you to know this...
i dont want things to look better in the morning... i want things to look better now.... just coz im down you dont need to be <3
you've just got to execpt that you are not gonna be as close to me as my freinds yet.






iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

But it hurts so... ...just one more touch to let me know...

i hurt.
i dont wanna feel like this anymore, when people see me depressed and they ask why, i dont even know what to say anymore, theres so many reasons, i just wanna know what or who will make me happy... of course there are moments in each day when i smile and laugh, or make someone else do those things, but it never lasts... why wont it ever last..... it could last a lesson... then as soon as its over im back to what at the moment seems normal again :/
i hate to admit it, but why was i so happy when i was 'seeing' you when you treated me so shit. why now after everything do you just look in my direction as if im not even there, why am i even saying this after everything?
maybe this just proves how confused and fucked up my head is.
i suppose theres an end to everything... i just have to wait for my ending. i just want to be so happy and i actually physically cant. not for a substantial amount of time anyway.
eurgh. i hurt.
i need to talk and you're not there... you're never on when im at my shittest. hmmm. coincedence... surely that should mean something... ?






Lady Gaga- Beautiful, Dirty, Rich <3>iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

i was fine until you walked in to my life...

Gosh. such a bad day today, and i cant even begin to explain why.... there are so many reasons now. i just dont see an end to this yet. and i dont see where this is going.... because of me.
you mean so much, im sorry you have to wait. its noice to know you are there for me though... sorry to everyone bout day. what can i say? im a bitch when im in a mood... but hey. ain't life a bitch.
god.... again.... 'What are you doing Valentine's Day?'..... coz i would want to spend it with you. you complete and utter cock. just piss off out of my life and i would be fine.

oh well im all good now. saw my papa :)

cant wait till march.... my bday, but more imporantly.... im getting myself skullcandy headphones :) :)

theee one song that makes me happy Medic Droid- Fer Sure :)
you dont know about blogs... but thank you for today in ps :) you made a lot more happier!







love for...... Spring Nicht (L)
iloveyou. Miss Unknown

he walks away... he takes the day.... but i am grown...

thank you, you dont know why but im going say it anyway x

i loved today, i love everyone in my life right now. everyone. and i can finally say this coz your out of it, i dont care about you anymore, hence my happiness :]

i love the things you say, you seem to know exactly what to say to make smile :] i love everything xx

She is peng. she has a peng dress and she is my own personal fitty mcvitty coz we are extremely cool and have way tooo much in common :] i love herr. and love what she makes me do sometimes ;]
sorry btw!!








iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Am i just another seen from a movie that you've seen 100 times....

today made me realise how much you do make me happy when i see you... its not the same without you, i needed to talk, and you werent there..... so if thats what it feels like to be without you then i'd rarther not... i missed you sooo much.

thank you for our loverly chat in Maths, its nice that we can talk like that seeing as we're all in the same situation :] and it really helped me.


HER ARSE IT NOT THE SIZE OF THE HIMALAYA'S.




currently listening to: Mayday Parade- When I Get Home You're So Dead

iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

My Chemical Romance- The Ghost Of You.....

I never said I’d lie in wait forever
If I died, we'd be together now
I can’t always just forget her
But she could try
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever
Get the feeling that you’re never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
She dies
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
If I fall
If I fall (down)
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna



<3 :/

iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

crack the shutters open wide i want to bathe you in the light of day...

Its not love. its not friendship. its not hate.
its indifference.
i feel just nothing now, i dont care about you or what you do.... whatever. theres nothing... i see you and i can honestly say i feel nothing. complete emptiness.
well this is what i will keep telling myself.

i love all of you dudes... your all lovely in your own way and its great with the new and the old :]

today was a really good day!! which helps.


i know you probably didnt want to see it, but i had to show you, you had to know, to understand.... after our conversation last night, it just felt right... but im sorry coz i know i have just gone and made it all more real for you... but i know i never promised... but i told you i would try x

you've made me worried, if you want to talk i am here for you just let me know... you know i am always here for you... i wont judge coz you know iloveyou.

thank you for a brilliant weekend and our awesome chats and walk :] i hope i made you just as happy... coz i know we both havent been too good recently and we both have kinda similar problems. iloveyou twin/wife xx



its been minutes its been hours its been all i will remember...



iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Arctic Monkeys- If you were there, beware...

If you were there beware the serpant soul pinchers
Three hundred and fifty no thank yous and nobody flinches
Go on girl go on, give us something gruesome
We require your grief for thugs and the thiefs
As they're trying to rob the words from her gob
And take the source of the innocence.

And if you were there beware the serpant soul pinchers
You can't you said she was never meant to fill column inches
And you had enough what you're trying to dig up isn't there to be dug
The thiefs and the thugs
As they're trying to be the digger graves of her sweet heart and to the point she'll comply
And why leave her on her own
If I'd of known then I wouldn't have said it
I wouldn't have said it if I'd have known
And I leave her on her own
If I predicted tears then I wouldn't have said it
I wouldn't have said it if I had known.

There's a cirlce of witches ambitiously vicious they are
And our attempts to remind them of reason wont get us that far
I don't know what it is that they want
I don't know what it is that they want
But I haven't got it to give
She hasn't got it to give




iloveyou. Miss Unknown

forcing a smile and waving goodbye... perhaps 'fuck off' might be too kind.

what do we do now, where does it go from here...
we confronted, we all did, but its just not going through, you're so indenial and it saddens me.you need to realise that you're not doing everything you can, you're doing nothing.... ive told you how to do it, i told you its half the reason i feel like this.... and yet you still dont see the problem. the problem is you cant take the truth. you dont want to hear it so you quite simply wont.
the reason i told you is coz i dont want something... bad to happen to you, coz it will if you carry on and if something did happen i would never forgive myself. so dont tell me to shut up.
AND. just to clarify the bitch sitting next whispering trojan in your ear is lying. and if something did happen to you, i would put 80% of the blame on her. she is doing nothing good for you. its partially her fucking fault for shit sake. if you were with us you would never be what you are now, and technically thats not your fault, but that technically means shes got a lot to do with it. so it kills me to see her sitting there thinking shes all good when she isnt. i hate her. you both need to open your eyes and see the danger you're both in.... we've tried to do it for you and clearly that isnt working, so fuck it, its just down to yourselves now.





iloveyou. Miss Unknown

Busted- Can't Break Through... perfeccct :/

I hate when you say
That I don't blow you away
I can't break through that way
Our friends told us
We wouldn't last for the week
'Cos they think that I'm a freak
They hated my blue streak
I can't control this
Why does it feel like it's raining in my head
I don't understand
Why are you always complaining about me
You don't even know who I am
Don't think I wanna know you
I'm tired of running after you
I won't send a sorry card
'Cos I don't need you
I'm giving up on never ending this
I'll find a way of getting over this
I'll let go in every way
'Cos I don't need you
I feel that it's time for me
To draw the line
I know that I'll be fine
Without your bitching
'Cos everyday I become a little less numb
'Cos I don't need you
Don't think I wanna know
I gotta go
Before I go crazy
I let go in every way
'Cos anyway
I know that you hate me.


iloveyou. Miss Unknown

"how did it come to this, how did it ever come to this?"

you're the guy that cheers me up. the guy i go to first. the guy i can tell anything. and dont ever think the opposite. and anything that bothers you... you can come to me, you can count on me to do exactly what you do for me.... x
you mean so much, and i know you want to help and do something about it and just talk to him, but he is too wrapped up in his own little world of 'me me me' that he wouldnt have even noticed what hes done, let alone care. and i just dont want you to waste your breath on someone that isnt worth it. coz you're more of a person of a being than he'll ever be... just remeber that.
i was always there, and still am, of course you never noticed... but i got over it didnt i, so dont worry about it. x

you dont realise how awful you made me feel today, and this is a complete waste of typing coz you dont even know what a fucking blog is... but it gets it out of my system.... until the next time you decide fuck up my life even more. you're a fake. thats all i can say.. you think you're so great and that you know what love is.... you're heartless, you're blind to the effects of you're actions, and one day it will come back round and smack you hard. right in the face.... or that might be my fist. or her fist. either way you'll get what you deserve.

you disgust me.

i dont want to take it out on myself no more.

thank you for the wonderful chat. iloveyou dad x








iloveyou. Miss Unknown

im just a ghost. And still they echo.....

i know you care, you want to take it all away, i dont like the way i feel at them moment but if you took it all away....
i wouldnt be the person i am now... coz i feel changed, and people will see the difference when i finally become fully fufilled again....

im getting there.
just at the moment i cant forget the times before....







iloveyou. Miss Unknown

If You Wanna Live Life Loud, throw your hands up...!!

Gosh.
Great day afternoon today, thanks to her and Sociology.
Though seeing you after made it just that lil bit better ;]

I didnt need your text on monday. i didnt need your comments yesterday. So you should have gathered by now i dont need you. you seem to think i can't live without you... and that your something special, but honestly we could all especially me live without you.
you've found your next VICTIM. good luck to her i just hope she is more clever than me... and notices your game.


great afternoon!!! :]
Great form time :)








iloveyou. Miss Unknown

'Raise Your Hands And Shout A Little Louder....'

WOW.
This is technically a post to all Tokio Hotel haters.....
i love them, i would do them but i officially from this day have no.
tokio. hotel. obsession...... :(.....
I am all for HAWK Nelson
pure love for the Hawk Nelsonage....


still can't live without the gift of Tokio Hotel and the Kaulitz bro's though,
and Till Linderman made it clear only me and the TWO are the only ones who can get laid in Germany.... :)








iloveyou. Miss unknown.

Just Keep On Cramming Ideas Down My Throat....

just had an argument with you. you just dont understand, well i know you do, but you just dont take it seriously. he treats it like an adult situation and not just blaming it on hormones and age, he goes out of his way to make me smile, you just say hi then tell me to take the cups in to the kitchen.... you wont make the situation better by arguing with me, i just felt like everything was starting to get better i was still confused... but i was starting to see ahead you have led me back to that black hotel mirror. where i cant see what im looking at. and i know you think they are silly, immature problems that i will get over and look back and regret but they are important now and it would just be nice to know that i have you to talk to..... im sorry for my moods but i cant help it....


yes you can come in to my room and interrupt my blog sesssion bout you...


.....you came to apologise and you finally understand i had to explain it all in detail just so you could understand but we got there, you still think i should get over it but at least i now know i can talk to you... you could never argue as long as me anyway....


you were the first person i went to, coz i knew you would be there to care... and you were thank you for your offer and thank you for being there to listen and understand. like you always were and are. xxxx






iloveyou. miss unknown .

Your lil WhiteTiger...

i look forward to reading your blog everyday, it just amazes me how someone can feel the you do... about me. it means so much to know how you feel and what you're thinking and how much you care. i know that it will get better.... but their still other issues that need to be sorted hence my lasy blog and only she 'my twin' knows coz only she will understand this one coz this ones private and im sorry, but i like it that way.
the reason for this deep blog is coz im sitting here, just bot back from
the gym and you're not msn.... and it frustrated me so im im leaving this here for you to read when ever you do coz i know you all of people will know who im taking about...... you!


i love you twin/ wife/ freind thank you for everything at lunch time today <3>

its time to come clean and make sense of everything...





iloveyou. Miss Unknown

'Those Sweet Words Spoken Like A Melody'...

5 hour art exam :/ was not enjoyable!

i read her blog entry for today... wow.... it really made me think, what is my purpose?
we are similar, we say we're similar all the time, but she's feeling pretty much exactly how i feel
its weird, without knowing you are making me feel so much better coz i know you can relate to what im saying :)
you are the only person who knows and we both can help and i will support you all the way, im here for you x
thank you for making me feel better this afternoon!! :D


When i look in your eyes, i can feel the butterflies...ive opened up my heart, i never want to part...
see my heart was like a lost balloon, rising up through the afternoon, and then you appeared.






iloveyou. Miss Unknown

couldn't describe me better.

Where's your heart?
There's nothing i could say to change that part.
A life thats so demanding... i get so weak... a love thats so demanding... i cant speak.
i am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone, honey if you stay you'll be forgiving, nothing you can say can stop me going home.
Im so weak. Is it hard understanding? well im incomplete. a love thats so demanding i get so weak.
With words i thought i'd never speak awake and unafraid, asleep or dead...
Coz im out here on the other side, with a jet black hotel mirror.






iloveyou. Miss Unknown

hmmmmmm

A few of my friends have troubles and worries right now and I’m doing my best to help them and support them. From the previous blog you can see I’m not all that happy. But in form on Friday she made me forget everything just for that short while and we made each other happy :) and I love them and her for everything friends do even though they don’t realise!

Thank you all for today, thanks you two for last night!

Thank you for everything... and accepting that some things are just not said.








Iloveyou. Miss unknown x

it feels weird writing this...

Right. The question is why has ‘this’ or should I say ‘that’ left me feeling the way I do, let’s face it he could have done a lot worse, it’s just I’ve spent the last five months flitting from feeling to feeling with him and its left me feeling, like I should be different, its worn me out. I feel weak. I knew starting that was a bad idea and people told me that and I didn’t listen I just wanted to find out for myself and I did. I feel so different and I now I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not I just feel... empty... I don’t know why I feel like there’s something missing. Now I’ve just found out something that makes me so happy.... but I don’t know how I should feel at the moment I feel amazing! But will it last... I’m this girl that’s weird and loud, but at the moment that’s been my mask. he's probably thinking what’s so bad that fucks your head. But it has and he doesn’t even realise coz of course compared to him I’m seen as nothing in his eyes. I’m down. I’m not sure what my version of down is. But I’m down. At the moment I can’t seem to get past it. Everything is dark and moody and most of the things in my life aren’t like that in reality. I’m just weak I’m tired and full of regret. I feel like should change, even though I don’t want to, and would he think less of me if I did? Coz he means so much.
I need someone to know this. But who and in a way I don’t, this should be a private thing for once....
I can honestly say, I don’t know how you did this to me.... but you are changing everything and it great.
And thanks to them x
I just feel weak.






Iloveyou. Miss unknown x

this is the beginning....

wow this is my first post :)
it seems interesting....... venting time can now begin!

your going to make me happy x






iloveyou miss unknown x