Wasting me away. With no apologies....

she wants to choke on her life again, breathing it in like a deadly poison. she cries coz shes lost

but she doesnt even know what she wants . her eyes go cold and she begs the world to just let her go... she hides all alone inside the pain that she wont let go, watching her life pass her by, watching it all throuh her watery eyes.
but ill be chasing dragonflies from her darkest skies... until the day she dies.....

im sorry, i shouldnt have said anything.
but we will just forget everything that was said. i wasnt going to tell you.
just forget it all. you mean so much. its not going to become awkward. i promise.
im sorry.









iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

wake up in the morning feeling like winehouse...

hmmmm. im all confused and stuffs.......
you confuse me.
.....
..........

quite simply, i think things are different for you...

i dont think its gonna be quite as simple as i thought.. or as it first seemed...

theres jealously, and little trust..... and a sense of being used?...

yeah. used?

rawrrr. i just dont knowww

or its just simply my immaturity...?




Allow it.

Rihanna- Hard
iloveyou. Miss Unknown. (L)

they can say whateva, im'a do whateva, no pain lasts foreva. yup ya know this...

Can't Do This.
Can't Do This Anymore.
Can't Do This.
These People Make Me Feel Sick.
I Hate You All.
Go Sort Out Ypur Own Lives, Before Judging Mine.

And People Wonder Why I'm Depressed...







iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Our lips, Can touch

I miss you, i saved them. i saved them all...
they meant so much.... you mean so much <3
i love you



"Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...."


thats how i feel.

in science, with the Amazing Robyn <3 not doing much work, but oh well, good times jebe and the Jesus chats :) ilove Robyn x






hellogoodbye- Here in your arms
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

All i can ever be to you, is the darkeness that we knew and this regret i've got accustomed too.

wow.... its been so long, i dont even know where to begin.....
I still feel shit like before. possibly worse coz i have even more family shit thrown in. its not they're business right now, what they dont know wont hurt them. the more she does this, the more im gonna do that, but whatever, i just cant be dealing with her shit right now :/

I have officiall given up with you, i want nothing to do with you, you come out with all this shit that you have changed, bit i can see through the lies now, you're still he shit head you always have been. you cant hurt me anymore. yeah. people know now. Cockland. beaters arent respected. it quite frankly was love. pfft. no. infactuation.

im glad we're freinds again and that everything has kinda been forgotten about, coz i still consider you to be a really close friend and we can talk about anything you are considered a really close friend too, and its nice that we help with eachothers issues, you know i will always be here for you and i wont ever judge <3
you now... and i really like you asi have told you and i love getting to know you better.... i miss you everyday.... and when i saw you last, i was sooo happy (L) you.... how do i know that what you say isnt just empty words? how can i tell that you 'love me'? and what would happen to me if i found out that what i suspect from you is true? and would it be too late? i dont know.... but im willing to take the risk..... i love you, i love you, i love you.... <3
xxxxxxxxxxxx


ahaaa <333
Amy Winehouse- My Tears Dry On Their Own <3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Sometimes i feel like saying lord i just don't care, but you've got the love i need to see me through...

i never thought i would loose a freind at the end of it all.... i never even imagined it would this bad.... i didn't realise i would turn in to this disgusting human being who you can't stand near, look at or talk to... i guess i was stupid in thinking that it wouldn't be this way.

im gonna miss you over the half term... i know after everythying that has been confessed but you are such a close friend right now and its the best feeling to know that i have you to talk to whenever i need it and you have really helped me over the last few weeks, is it more than friendship for me though?
<3


spending weekend with sian and char <3
so it should all be good, it will keep my mind from wandering for the time being.



told you, you hadnt changed. it had to be done... you had it coming to you for a while.





gosh.
<3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

for all the ghosts that are ever gonna scar me...

just simply... i need to stop taking things out on myself.
but its all my fault, what am i supposed to do... i hurt.















iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

We've got obsessions......

well thank you for acting mature about it. not.
ok that was bitchy, i understand it must have really hurt, but you're not the only one its ever happened to. i know how your feeling... im sorry i couldnt keep you happy, but it got to the point, where i got to the only situation in life where you HAVE to put yourself first. it was your happiness over mine. you may have been happy but i wasnt.... and it got to the point where i began to think i dont think you're the one that can make me happy.
all im saying is just dont take it out on your freinds. they're fucking caring. so dont throw it back in their faces. or one day thay just wont care anymore. just my lil warning there.

it was one of the hardest things id ever had to do... trying to put something nicely that no matter how i said was going to have the same effect. but if you even bother/ care/ are mature enough to read this then just think about this... would you have rathered id led you on? thinking about something more which was never going to happen? you said you wanted me to just be happy.... well this is what i need.... and im sorry... really. i am. but technically im apologising for trying to make myself happy.

i can understand if you dont want to be friends.
i just hope you find happiness again.
it was nice being part of that group just for that short while.
love you all <3



song of the day: Marina and the diamonds- obsessions <3
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

your dirty little secrets.....

Can't say much on here, but oh.my.god.
brilliant night last night... completely out of my face, which was well needed may i add.
it helped me forget EVERYTHING.

it was nice meeting you, shame we weren't introduced before last night... good times :] <3



YOU GEEK....

what drunken madness we lived in just for those quick hours <3








YOU GEEK.
iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

I'm all out of faith, this is how i feel, im wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn...

WELL. right i guess i have explaining to do... i cant talk to you on msn coz you're offline and im about to go out. so i will have to say on here (which i hate btw)...

you are making things better for me, just knowing i can talk to you whenever and that you care is enough to make me feel better... i didnt mean say i dont want to talk to you, or whatever its just i just need time thats all and not for you too get too obsessed, i dont want to hurt you like she did... coz i dont care whether you're used to hurt.. i dont want to be another person to hurt you.... i do need you, and i need you here, if you werent i would have told you by now.
i just need you to know this...
i dont want things to look better in the morning... i want things to look better now.... just coz im down you dont need to be <3
you've just got to execpt that you are not gonna be as close to me as my freinds yet.






iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

But it hurts so... ...just one more touch to let me know...

i hurt.
i dont wanna feel like this anymore, when people see me depressed and they ask why, i dont even know what to say anymore, theres so many reasons, i just wanna know what or who will make me happy... of course there are moments in each day when i smile and laugh, or make someone else do those things, but it never lasts... why wont it ever last..... it could last a lesson... then as soon as its over im back to what at the moment seems normal again :/
i hate to admit it, but why was i so happy when i was 'seeing' you when you treated me so shit. why now after everything do you just look in my direction as if im not even there, why am i even saying this after everything?
maybe this just proves how confused and fucked up my head is.
i suppose theres an end to everything... i just have to wait for my ending. i just want to be so happy and i actually physically cant. not for a substantial amount of time anyway.
eurgh. i hurt.
i need to talk and you're not there... you're never on when im at my shittest. hmmm. coincedence... surely that should mean something... ?






Lady Gaga- Beautiful, Dirty, Rich <3>iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

i was fine until you walked in to my life...

Gosh. such a bad day today, and i cant even begin to explain why.... there are so many reasons now. i just dont see an end to this yet. and i dont see where this is going.... because of me.
you mean so much, im sorry you have to wait. its noice to know you are there for me though... sorry to everyone bout day. what can i say? im a bitch when im in a mood... but hey. ain't life a bitch.
god.... again.... 'What are you doing Valentine's Day?'..... coz i would want to spend it with you. you complete and utter cock. just piss off out of my life and i would be fine.

oh well im all good now. saw my papa :)

cant wait till march.... my bday, but more imporantly.... im getting myself skullcandy headphones :) :)

theee one song that makes me happy Medic Droid- Fer Sure :)
you dont know about blogs... but thank you for today in ps :) you made a lot more happier!







love for...... Spring Nicht (L)
iloveyou. Miss Unknown

he walks away... he takes the day.... but i am grown...

thank you, you dont know why but im going say it anyway x

i loved today, i love everyone in my life right now. everyone. and i can finally say this coz your out of it, i dont care about you anymore, hence my happiness :]

i love the things you say, you seem to know exactly what to say to make smile :] i love everything xx

She is peng. she has a peng dress and she is my own personal fitty mcvitty coz we are extremely cool and have way tooo much in common :] i love herr. and love what she makes me do sometimes ;]
sorry btw!!








iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

Am i just another seen from a movie that you've seen 100 times....

today made me realise how much you do make me happy when i see you... its not the same without you, i needed to talk, and you werent there..... so if thats what it feels like to be without you then i'd rarther not... i missed you sooo much.

thank you for our loverly chat in Maths, its nice that we can talk like that seeing as we're all in the same situation :] and it really helped me.


HER ARSE IT NOT THE SIZE OF THE HIMALAYA'S.




currently listening to: Mayday Parade- When I Get Home You're So Dead

iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

My Chemical Romance- The Ghost Of You.....

I never said I’d lie in wait forever
If I died, we'd be together now
I can’t always just forget her
But she could try
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever
Get the feeling that you’re never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
She dies
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
If I fall
If I fall (down)
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna



<3 :/

iloveyou. Miss Unknown.

crack the shutters open wide i want to bathe you in the light of day...

Its not love. its not friendship. its not hate.
its indifference.
i feel just nothing now, i dont care about you or what you do.... whatever. theres nothing... i see you and i can honestly say i feel nothing. complete emptiness.
well this is what i will keep telling myself.

i love all of you dudes... your all lovely in your own way and its great with the new and the old :]

today was a really good day!! which helps.


i know you probably didnt want to see it, but i had to show you, you had to know, to understand.... after our conversation last night, it just felt right... but im sorry coz i know i have just gone and made it all more real for you... but i know i never promised... but i told you i would try x

you've made me worried, if you want to talk i am here for you just let me know... you know i am always here for you... i wont judge coz you know iloveyou.

thank you for a brilliant weekend and our awesome chats and walk :] i hope i made you just as happy... coz i know we both havent been too good recently and we both have kinda similar problems. iloveyou twin/wife xx



its been minutes its been hours its been all i will remember...



iloveyou. Miss Unknown.